LuRvEs 
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
haiz... where do i start... hmmm... slpt for 10 hrs.... yea... 10 hrs.. i think its twice or even thrice the amt of slp den his... not exactly quarrel.. but jus some prob... its not jus his fault... i'm at fault too... haiz.... sometimes i really really duno myself... y can't i jus show my fucking damn affection out... y do i have to hide them??
haiz... so sad... and wat he said really breaks my heart... i was crying & crying... aarrgghhh wat's the use of crying u idiot ger~~!?!?! haiz... i jus can't help... but i can say tat i slpt well last nite.... NOT becos i dun give a damn abt it.... its jus tat i'm really tired... tired to the extent tat when i wanna think abt it... my brain jus wanna shut off... and plus the previous nite i din slp well too...
stupid me~~!! haiz... y i nv tell him abt the interview?!?!?!? i create this trouble... serve me right~!! haiz.... yes i might be staying @ home everyday.... online everyday.... but i oso browse thru jobs online... send my resumes and stuff... den once in a while got ppl call me den i go for interview... fresh grad... hoping to find a job... but till now still cant find... i dun feel gd either... Mich is working... she'll give mummy money when she get her pay... me? no work = no income.... and i dun even dare to ask money from mummy... like WTF?!?! i shld go find a job and earn my own money... yea how i wish i could... but 1st.. i need a bloody god damn job~~!! aarrggghhh....
i'm a real introvert... and i dun really know how to express myself... yes ppl will say: wat u wan jus show it... keep to urself how ppl know? yes yes yes... i know... but i'm unable to do tat... haizz... sorry tat i tok more to EL rather den to u.... sorry tat i nv say i wanna acc u to see the doc... sorry tat i nv tell u tat i was gg for interview... sorry tat i din show my care & concern in the way u wan....
yes i'm a words person... and words are useless to you... when not put into action... i will try... but i really need time... i know time is a factor tat isn't in favour for u... so i have to try harder...
i know u've been stressed with work... and u have ur family prob to brood over... i'm really sorry tat i have to create this to add on to ur worries...
JuLiA
AnDy @ 12:59:00 PM

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